It was gray and rainy all weekend. Dear husband, who has been traveling every week lately and has to continue for the near future, had to work all weekend. Yesterday, I woke up to a quiet, gloomy house and looked outside at the fog.
The music in my head, as beautiful as it was, didn't help. She Loves Me is one of my favorite musicals. The two main characters fall in love through letters. In Dear Friend (a waltz, giving a feeling of coupleness), she waits for him, with diminishing hope, at a romantic restaurant:
Charming, romantic, the perfect cafe
Then as if it isn't bad enough a violin starts to play
Candles and wine, tables for two, but where are you dear friend?
Couples go past me, I see how they look.
So discreetly sympathetic when they see the rose and the book.
I make believe nothing is wrong, how long can I pretend?
Please make it right, don't break my heart, don't let it end, dear friend...
Listen here.
I could really easily sink into the same lonely depression I had last winter, but I'm determined not to.
I don't do New Year's Resolutions. If I want to change something, I can try at any point. However, one idea floating around friends' walls on Facebook struck me this year. Choose a word to set the tone for your year.
I decided to choose "laugh" - in two senses. First, I tend to take things too seriously. I get silently argumentative so "laugh it off" would be good for me. Also, laughing helps depression. Okay, it doesn't fix anything, but it makes things a bit better. Last week, when I woke up gloomy one morning, I started the day with this Eddie Izzard clip (language, of course):
It doesn't help that Broadway Dance was cancelled last week. Last night, I tried Lyric Dance. It's sort of contemporary dance with a very small bit of ballet. It was fun, but I'm not sure I want to do it every week (it's also more... swoopy, and my back and neck aren't happy this morning). We did a dance to a minute of Glitter in the Air by Pink:
Tonight, I'm, hopefully, going to try tap. If tap were on another night, I'd definitely take it. Tuesday night, however, is when I go to a really high energy Zumba class. I get out all my frustrations and feel lots better after it. Can I do both classes? I'll see tonight.
Supposedly, it should clear up today. Not yet. I woke up to clouds and fog again. I had a different song in my head, though. More Pink - Raise Your Glass. It's helping my mood: